When Enough is Enough
I am enough. How can three little words be so powerful? There have been many times in my life when I have felt inadequate. Who hasn't? Not pretty enough, not strong enough, not feminine enough, not cool enough, not clever enough. Arrrggggghhhhhhhhhh! Not feeling good enough is so limiting isn't it? It can make us want to give up on our journey or worse still not even show up! It's like there's a pesky little gremlin sat on our shoulder whispering (sometimes screaming) 'you are not as good as them.' Well guess what? I am good enough. I am worthy of success and happiness. And so 2016 has become the year of stepping into my power. In your face self-doubt and fear!
In January I decided to write myself a simple affirmation. It's stuck to my bedroom mirror so that I remember to shower myself with kind words every morning. It reads 'I am a strong, powerful, capable and confident woman and I can handle anything that comes my way. I am enough.'
But beware! The 'not good enough' gremlin can strike when you least expect it, so make sure you have your arsenal of weapons to hand. Take Sunday for example. I had excitedly booked myself on to Gail O'Brien's workshops but as the trick extravaganza approached I became increasingly anxious. It caught me by surprise to be honest but there it was in all its glory, the anti-cheerleader chanting words of discouragement and doubt. I could feel myself slowly doing a U-turn but I had paid for these workshop places AND I had two new Hoopspin polypros waiting for me! I couldn't let the fear win!
There have been times in my life where I would've listened to this negative chat, cried and promptly left the crime scene. But as I stood in the Malcolm X Centre in Bristol admiring the talented hoopers around me, I gave myself a little pep-talk and stepped up to the challenge. I was here to learn and grow and that needed some power-talk. I wasn't the most competent hooper there by a long chalk but I gave each sequence my best shot and most importantly I had a blast. Yes, I was the blonde at the back laughing her way through the afternoon! Laughter - it's a great resilience tactic.
I am still learning to accept and love myself for who I am but through the regular practice of hoop dance, meditation, abundant thinking and pushing myself out of my comfort zone I am moving forward all the time. If, like me, you lack self-belief I invite you to join me in taking back your power. Try starting your day by saying to 'I am enough' and see how different you feel. Or may be you have an affirmation you'd like to share? Let's grow together.
Rise Up and Hoop Dance.